Shade-Duelist

Hello my dear followers!

First off, I must apologise for the long, long radio silence.  I've been very busy, a lot of things in my life have been going on!  In chronological order, this has been happening:
- I've applied for a fixed position at my current company.
- I've started talking to a guy online that I met through a dating website and that happened to have many things in common with me - at first I was a little apprehensive because he's from England and I'm not, but I figured there'd be no harm in me talking to the guy.
- I had a job interview for that fixed position at my current company, and secured the job the next day.
- I went to the notary public and got the official divorce papers made and signed.
- I blocked my ex from seeing my Facebook updates, he hasn't sussed it out or he has and he doesn't care.
- I've started falling in love with the guy I met online and agreed to go see him at New Year's this year.
- I started gaming more and writing less.
- I've started NaNoWriMo.
- I developed a serious problem after a teambuilding trip with my co-workers: heavy stomach cramps to the point of preventing me from functioning in day-to-day life.  Went to A&E, got admitted into hospital, and it took 4 days for them to figure out I had a) a lower bowel inflammation, b) a urinary tract infection and c) a large cyst on my left ovary.
- I had surgery to remove the cyst (laparoscopy) which revealed that a) the cyst was not on my left ovary but on my right and b) I have endometriosis.
- The very next day (surgery on Monday Nov 28th, so this is Tuesday Nov 29th) I went to court to get the last paperwork for the divorce signed, everything will be made final (barring freak mistakes and such) around halfway through February!
- I've been at home for nearly 3 weeks, watching Eexecute videos in the morning and doing nothing special in the afternoon, and talking to my boyfriend online in the evenings.  Or gaming.  Or both.

And that basically brings me back to today!  I start work again on Monday - still have to work the glorious total of 8 entire working days (well, actually, 7 whole days and 1 half day on Friday ;3) before my working year is done!  My new job starts on January 6th, after what I hope to be a spectacular holiday season where I first spend Christmas with my parents and two brothers ♥ and then the days preceding and including New Year's with the man I've fallen for.

So, uh, yes, that's pretty much my life.

I know it's a bit early to look back at the year, but hey, Facebook is doing it so why shouldn't I?  I thought all of the changes in my life had already taken place in 2015 - my then-husband finally getting the help he needed, changing jobs to an infinitely better and more rewarding job with great colleagues and much appreciation for my talents, being closer to my family... - but at the end of 2015, things were set in motion that ultimately led to me taking a decision that, the more I look back on it, was long, long overdue.  My marriage was never a healthy one, though it was, to me, always a happy one until I realized I was wasting away.  I haven't regretted anything in my life, which has certainly been tumultuous - you can look back at my journals and see just how many ups and downs my life has had.  I will never regret my marriage, but now the future just looks so much more bright and promising to me now that I'm my own person again, able to live life for myself first and foremost - and someone special along with that, I hope.  Who knows where 2017 will end me?

Have a great month of December, you guys!

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My SFM video (crappy, I know, but I had fun making it!):




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The Legion of Duelist Locations:



~Don't worry, I'll make your last moments... absolutely beautiful! ♥~

...Thank you, Trossi, for this journal layout, I'm lovin' it!
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Amazing artists I've be-friend-ed for real:


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Amazing artists I admire from afar:


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My Steam profile:



(remember to note me here if you add me to your friends list, because private profiles get refused and 'iffy' profiles get refused too - if I don't know who you are, there's a 10 to 1 chance you'll get denied)

Stamp collection:
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...That is all.

Just thought I'd update with a fresh new journal about how things are standing in my life!

So I've been living in my new apartment since end of June (for those of you that missed an update: surprise married Shade is evolving into divorced Shade! wooooooo *sad balloon noises*) and things are 90% in order. Still need to install my desktop pc, get my lamps put up (I mean I have lamps, but they're just bare lightbulbs), and get curtains installed in my bedroom. And some general last unpacking. And then... the first cleaning! I know it sounds like I'm a huge slob (and it's not wrong) but I'm living pretty neatly and dirtiness isn't really an issue yet, but it's about time I managed to do some thorough cleaning.

The divorce itself is coming along slowly to very slowly. Summer holidays means everyone is out chillin' out, which means that it takes forever to get things sorted out.

But I won't let that stop me from doing what Shade does best! I'm still writing, still doing my thing... As a matter of fact, I've written about 5 or 6 minifics in the past month or so and I've also worked on some of the bigger stories I've got! And I've done loads of voice acting! I've dubbed these comics:



These were fun and I intend to do more, but I won't be able to output much of them, since I generally voice things whenever inspiration strikes and I have a few ideas still lined up that I want to churn out first ;3 But yea expect more of that!

All in all, Shade is a busy Shade and loves you all! ♥

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My SFM video (crappy, I know, but I had fun making it!):




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The Legion of Duelist Locations:



~Don't worry, I'll make your last moments... absolutely beautiful! ♥~

...Thank you, Trossi, for this journal layout, I'm lovin' it!
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Amazing artists I've be-friend-ed for real:


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Amazing artists I admire from afar:


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My Steam profile:



(remember to note me here if you add me to your friends list, because private profiles get refused and 'iffy' profiles get refused too - if I don't know who you are, there's a 10 to 1 chance you'll get denied)

Stamp collection:
     <da:thumb id="199102042"/>        <da:thumb id="259625696"/>          <da:thumb id="409789037"/>    <da:thumb id="296506540"/>

...That is all.

Just came here to write that I'm progressing with my apartment and all My future living room and dining room have been primered, and this weekend the topcoat will go on. My furniture was ordered (Ikea ) and it will be delivered in two weeks. My electricity/gas company has been selected, my insurance has been taken care of...

As of 04/07 I'm now permanently living in my new apartment!  The moving company did its job excellently and I'm sooooo happy.  Now all I need to do is get this divorce sorted.  Starting with getting our mortgage transferred to my ex.  Let's hope that happens today!

Also a little update on my voice acting: I made SwapSoriel floof (to keep you all in suspense for my FLOOD of Underfell sins ), check it out on my Soundcloud! (link is below, darlings)

...Also, I just got blocked by a deviant for remarking that their art reminds me of someone else's art. How... surprising.

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My SFM video (crappy, I know, but I had fun making it!):




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The Legion of Duelist Locations:



~Don't worry, I'll make your last moments... absolutely beautiful! ♥~

...Thank you, Trossi, for this journal layout, I'm lovin' it!
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Amazing artists I've be-friend-ed for real:


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Amazing artists I admire from afar:


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My Steam profile:



(remember to note me here if you add me to your friends list, because private profiles get refused and 'iffy' profiles get refused too - if I don't know who you are, there's a 10 to 1 chance you'll get denied)

Stamp collection:
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...That is all.

My dear watchers, recently I've had to make the tough decision to divorce my husband because his depression was weighing heavily on me and my own mental health was deteriorating. I'm moving into an apartment of my own this month, and I need to do a lot of work to make this work (buy most of my furniture, fund my insurance, pay rent, pay utility bills, pay some food, hopefully find some time to write as well). So, in order to not lose my drive to write - and in order to maybe be able to still buy something nice and worthwhile to spruce up my new place of residence - I would like to point out the above neat icons. I have a Paypal donation link now - or for those that have the means and the desire to donate more regularly, I have Patreon as well - and I have my tumblr page, my Soundcloud, my Archiveofourown page and a Facebook page where I regularly update with the status of my writings and my writing woes and advice

...other than this update, please check below for the progress on my writings!

The forever lovely and magnificent has tagged me AGAIN!  They said 'use the ones you like' so here-a-we go!

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Shade
2. Rey
3. Texastoaster

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. Shade-Duelist (current on just about everywhere apart from tumblr)
2. texastoaster (tumblr blog name)
3. InsPyromania (youtube methinks!)

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
well excluding doing this journal...
1. Watched Louis Theroux a bit
2. Posted 2 stories from tumblr on AO3 and here
3. Signed up for a Secret Santa IN THE MIDDLE OF THE YEAR IM CONFUSED?!

THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I can frickin write.
2. I can multitask really well, but 3 things at once is the limit
3. ALL THE LOVE FOR MY ONLINE FRIENDS!!!!!

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My bad memory
2. My impatience
3. My belly flab that not even sit-ups get rid of anymore boohoohooo~~


THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. thunderstorms i swear to GAHD
2. Death
3. Losing my eyesight

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. T-shirt with happy quote
2. jeans leggings
3. pearl earrings

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Writing - it's an obsession!
2. Deodorant - armpits MUST REMAIN FRESH AT ALL TIMES!!
3. Compliments!  (Giving them, not getting them )

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. Laptop
2. Fake pottet hydrangea
3. My earrings

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Five Finger Death Punch
2. ZZ Top
3. (not really a band but OKAY) SharaX

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. Let the little things touch you in huge ways
2. Smile and the world smiles back
3. Remember you're doing better today than you were yesterday, but you'll do even better tomorrow
4. EXTRA ONE: Compliment from the heart!

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Basslovers United - Forever is over (Crystal Lake Remix)
2. Crystal Quest (Dungeons of the Endless soundtrack)
3. SharaX - Dark Darker Yet Darker remix

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Make my own earrings (what? I REALLY LIKE EARRINGS K?!)
2. make a remix!
3. Write a story without a happy ending.

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
1. The fries I ate last night
2. Giving so much of myself to my previous job when I was just miserable and felt like I had to for everyone but myself
3. Not partying harder when I was a tweenager.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Someone to laugh about the same things I laugh about
2. Amazing, uh, cuddles
3. Basically someone that sees my insecurities and doesn't expect me to be any different

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'VE GIVEN TO THE WORLD:
1. COMPLIMENTS!
2. So much sin fanfiction of the dirtiest variety
3. Love, comfort and care to those that matter to me

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
1. I told my husband of nearly 5 years I want a divorce 
2. I fell in love with a coworker 19 years older than me
3. I would cheat on my (soon ex-)husband with that coworker if I had the opportunity, without a single regret.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. Blue eyes (so I have a type...)
2. A gorgeous-yet-shy smile
3. Chest hair.

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. Intelligence (must be able to carry decent conversation about current topics)
2. Witty but not sassy (I like good humor)
3. A sense of romance (I'm talking roses, chocolates, long walks hand in hand... or, platonically, long gossip sessions over a nice cappuccino or macchiato!)

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Stick to a diet
2. Clean when it's not noticeably dirty yet (you need to SEE dem results!!)
3. not give 100% to a task

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. Being silly with my brothers over games (well REALLY silly I mean, like re-enacting scenes from our fave RPGs together!)
2. Dancing classes
3. Sitting in front of the television on the ground in my pj's XD

GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. FLOWERS 
2. CHOCOLATES
3. EARRINGS

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
1. I lost my first dream job - which made me decide that maybe 'settling' isn't all that bad
2. My brothers taught me there isn't a problem in the world that can outlast a good silly game (Yoshi's Story!), and my fitness classes taught me there isn't a problem in the world that can outlast a good physical workout (and the coinciding physical BREAKDOWN oh man)
3. My husband taught me that I need to measure out my heart only reasonably.

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. Writing!    
2. Gaming
3. Fiddling around with my tablet making shitty art

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Eat chocolates (but there are none)
2. HUG EVERYONE TWICE
3. read manga online

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. I GOT A JOB THAT MAKES ME HAPPY.
2. Copywriter maybe?  Freelance writer!
3. Owner of a boardgames/roleplayinggames-attributes/etc. store that you can also sit and play at with theme nights!

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
1. Ireland (again!)
2. The US of A!
3. Japan! 

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
like im talking abt tv show character ok
1. Aang
2. Mushra
3. Yoshi

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Get a tattoo
2. Get my story published!
3. Design my own apartment!


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Rules
Tag 8 people you want to know better!

Name:
Shade

Star sign:
Aries!

Average hours of sleep:
6-8

Lucky Number:
Seven.

Last thing I googled:
"stammer meaning"

Favorite fictional character:
At the moment: Papyrus (more specifically SwapPaps) / EVER: Duran (from Seiken Densetsu 3)

What are you wearing now?
A t-shirt with a happy quote ('Cherish the things that make you smile'), jeans leggings, pearl earrings, socks, house slippers

When did you start this account?:
February 2008 - my DA account is already 8 years old! 

Amount of watchers:
163 here and I think 75 or so on tumblr 

What do you post?
Sinful fanfiction, sometimes floofy fanfiction

Do you run any more blogs?:
UndertaintAU blog on tumblr (blog for my Undertaint AU and fanfic), texastoaster on tumblr (my unofficial main blog), my Rebekka S. page on Facebook (where I post short motivational comments and updates on my writing)

Do you get a lot of comments?:
OMG I get a lot of comments and I love that!!

Why did you choose this nickname?
Shade is the Elemental of Darkness from the Secret of Mana series and the Duelist part comes from Seiken Densetsu 3 (Secret of Mana 2) where Duelist is the Dark-Dark class choice for Duran, my fave character.


I tag:

and finally EVEN IF IT MAKES NO SENSE BECAUSE THERE IS NO 'NO TAGBACKS' RULE HERE MWAHAHAHAHAAA!!